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I KNOW

"I know."

With those two words, he stopped the firestorm of words swirling around Elizabeth. Both of the women who were berating Elizabeth for keeping the secret of his past from them.

"What?!" Sam yelled.

"What the hell are you talking about? You couldn't have known and not told me!" Carly loudly proclaimed, tossing her hair, "I'm you BEST FRIEND!! There is no way in HELL you would have kept that from me!"

"Jake? I mean, Jason...you knew? How? When?" said Elizabeth, confusion in her voice, tears starting to well up in her sapphire blue eyes.

"I've known since Christmas..." he started to explain as the room exploded again, this time some of the others in the room adding their two cents. Monica, Tracy, Sonny all turning on Elizabeth, only Patrick standing back observing what was going on, because for God only knows what reason, it was her fault that he knew who he was before she herself did. 'This is getting ridiculous,' he thought to himself as crossed over to Eiizabeth and took her hand.

"It's going to be ok, Elizabeth...trust me." Jason said, kissing her hand.

"I do trust you, but Jason...Jake...I don't even know what to call you...I just don't understand. Why didn't you say anything?"

He smiled down at her, turning to face the room placing himself between Elizabeth and the hostility that was coming in waves off of the others in the room with him.

"First of all, none of this is Elizabeth's fault. I found out before she even knew who I was and I didn't say anything. I made the decision to keep it a secret. I looked around and saw that you all had moved on. You were all happy. My old life, where I took care of everyone's problems, you all didn't need that. Sure, you missed me...but you didn't need me to clean up your messes."

He looked around, taking in the various expressions of the people around him. Monica seemed sad, Patrick resigned, Carly and Sam angry.

"I know that you all don't understand. I didn't do this to hurt any of you, I did it to save myself. Before I 'died', I was drowning. I was overwhelmed by everything that was going on. Sam and I had filed for divorce, yeah it hadn't gone through yet, but it had been filed. And even though we had found Danny, I would have followed through with it. I'm sorry, but we were never meant to last. And if you look back without the rose colored 'Jason is dead' glasses, you know I'm right." he said to the now sobbing woman.

"But Jason...I loved you, I still do..." sobbed Sam, Patrick looking stricken to the core, like someone had ripped his life out from underneath him. He started for the door, looking back only once, to see if Sam had noticed him leaving and when he realized that she hadn't, he shook his head and left, closing the door behind him.

"I'm sorry, Sam. I've spoken to Diane, I'm going ahead with the divorce proceedings. We can talk later about Danny..."

"You won't get my son, Jaysin...I won't let you raise MY boy with HER!" Sam spat out, with venom in her voice, "I won't allow it!"

"Well then, Sam, I guess that I'll just have to go to the police with the file I have on you. I don't want to do it, I want us to be able to raise Danny as co-parents. I want what's best for our son, and I will be a part of his life. Whether or not you are also a part of it is up to you. You're Danny's mother, he loves you. For once, do what's best for him first."

"This is all your fault, Muffin...you KNEW Jason was alive and you didn't tell anyone!" Carly yelled, "if you had said something sooner, everything would be the way it's supposed to be!"

"Carly..." he said, blocking her attempt to grab Elizabeth, "you're forgetting that I knew before A

"Why didn't you say anything, Jase...I needed you! I needed you to talk me down!" Carly exclaimed, "You know what I do when you aren't around!", tears starting to run down her face.

"It was my fault you took up with Franco, had an affair with Sonny, slept with AJ?", he asked, looking down at Carly, her hand desperately clutching his arm.

"Look, man..." Sonny started, "You have to understand, it was a mess when you died. The business...you have to come back. I can't do this without you, you know that there's no getting out."

"No, you look, Sonny...I am out. I've been out. I talked to the Heads in January. They've known who I am, they know I'm not coming back. You didn't want Jake Doe around the business, and Jason Morgan won't be coming back. And before you say anything, Elizabeth didn't say anything to influence me. How could she? She didn't know who I was until a few weeks ago."

"Why don't we talk about that then, Jason." said Monica, who had been silent until then, "why don't we talk about why she didn't say anything, why did she keep quiet?"

He started to say something when he was stopped by a soft touch on his arm, "No. Let me take this...", Elizabeth said, "I did it for selfish reasons. I saw my chance with Jason, and I took it. I won't apologize. I love Jason. I love Jake. I love the man that they became. I saw everyone else being happy, being with the person they loved, and I wanted that. I deserve that, damnit! Even if I could go back and change what I did, I wouldn't change a thing. For the first time since I've known him, he was happy. Relaxed. Full of plans for the future."

"And what about Danny, you bitch?" sneered Sam, "how can you explain keeping him away from his father?"

"I had a moment of weakness,", came the devestating reply, delivered as she looked directly into Sam's eyes, "surely you, of all people, can understand that, right Sam?"

"What are you talking about, Elizabeth?", Monica asks, looking between both women, "will someone explain to me what is going on?"

"It's not something you need to know, Monica," said Elizabeth, "it won't change my feelings and it won't change how you treated me before, and after, Jason died. I own you no explanations. If your son wants to tell you, that is his right. But I owe you nothing. Not anymore."

"Now you listen here...", Sonny started, only to be interrupted by Elizabeth.

"No, you listen. For years, I've stood by and let you steamroll over me. Over Jason. It's done. It's over. You are one of the main reasons I kept my mouth shut. Your constant neediness, your messy personal life have taken too much from me and my family. I kept my mouth shut because I wasn't going to let you try to control Jason anymore. You and Carly and the rest of your family...he isn't your indentured servant anymore."

"Ok, I think this is over now," he said quietly. "The secret is out. You all know who I am now. I'm not Jason Morgan, I'm not Jason Quartermaine. I have memories of both, more of Morgan...and the Quartermaine memories are coming on slowly. I'm not going back to the 'business', I'm not going into medicine. Michael has asked me to help with ELQ, and for now, that is the best fit for me. I've made this decision, not Elizabeth. My future is with her, and with our sons. Do we have things to work out?," at this he paused to look down at the woman at his side, "yes, we do. But we will do them together. No bailing. No walking away. Everything and everyone else can go to hell. You ready to go, baby?"

Elizabeth smiled up at him, "Yeah. Let's go home."

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